‘Hello my lovely’ Pam Philpott beams as she approaches Stephanie’s bed. ‘Well, just look at you!’ She lightly kisses her on the forehead and sits down, immediately taking her hand and giving it a gentle squeeze. ‘Sitting up and taking notice!’ Tears come into her eyes as Stephanie smiles her lopsided smile.
‘Gnnyon’ Stephanie’s eyes light up and she raps from her chest to her navel with her knuckles.
‘Aaw, I noticed that...It’s lovely seeing you in a proper nightie again. It’s very pretty. Did Nathan buy it for you?’
Stephanie shakes her head and grabs Pam’s hand and pulls it to her chest ‘GNNYON!’
‘Ohhh!‘ Pam’s eyes widen when her fingers meet no resistance. ‘What a dope I am. I was so surprised at seeing you sitting up a bit; I never thought anything about why you were actually able to....Oh, that’s wonderful. When did they take it off?’
‘Nnnn’ Stephanie’s lips refuse to come together to form the hum of an em. ‘Nnornin’
‘And it’s better? Getting better?’ She modifies the question when Stephanie tilts her hand from side to side to mean her first assumption was not exactly right. ‘I’m surprised they’ve let you sit up’ she continues, the initial elation over and a worried expression taking the place of her smile ‘after looking like a tortoise for all this time’
Stephanie opens and closes her hands six times. ‘Aarn our’
‘And then what, they lay you back down again? Oh, right I see. Early days yet though. Expect you’re glad to get it off, bet it itched like hell’
‘Oth’ her tongue slips from between her teeth and she tries again ‘Hod’
‘Oh, I bet. It’s hot enough in here as it is’ She watches as Stephanie puts a hand down the neck of her nightdress then draws it back, holding something between fingers and thumb for her to see. Unsuspectingly, she puts out her hand. ‘Oh, you horrible, horrible child!’ She looks round for somewhere to rid herself of the flakes of peeled skin in her palm. ‘Horrible, disgusting, revolting child!’ Stephanie makes a gurgling sound in the back of her throat and Pam realises that she is trying to laugh. ‘Couldn’t you have saved that for somebody else?’ She twists her mouth into a tight purse of disapproval but starts to laugh when her niece shakes her head. ‘Only me would find it funny, eh? Well, all I can say is, I hope they’ve got some decent moisturiser or you’ll look like a lizard by the time you get out of here’
She gets up to deposit the contents of her palm into the paper waste bag clipped to the side of the bedside locker. ’Steph?’ her face clouds when she turns to sit down again ‘what’s wrong, my lovely? Are you in pain? Shall I call someone?’ she asks, regretting her careless words about appearance.
Stephanie shakes her head, her face becoming more contorted as her eyes fill with tears and she lifts her hand to her forehead.
‘It’s doing well’ Pam reaches out and gently pulls the hand away ‘It really is. Healing nicely. They’ve made your pretty face beautiful again.’ She tilts her head to one side and gives a closed lipped smile when Stephanie’s hand falls to her cheek and down to her mouth. ‘That will get better too, I promise you.’
‘Nnirror. I yant a nirror’
‘I don’t think that’s for me to do, pet. Not yet. There’s still a bit of healing to do and you won’t realise how much better it’s looking than it was...and it’s going to get a lot better than it is now’
‘NIRROR!’
‘I’ll get a nurse, she’ll be able to sit with you, she’ll know what’s what and what’s going to mend first, things like that’
Stephanie grasps her arm ‘Nnyo, you!’
Pam hesitates, looking round for some help. ‘I’m not sure I should’
Stephanie threads her fingers through Pam’s and pulls her hand closer. ‘Nnyou... fflease. You helf nee do it. I phant to see’
‘Everything alright, Stephanie?’ A nurse comes to the end of the bed, sensing a mini crisis developing. ‘Best we lie you down and you get some rest now, okay?’
‘She wants to look in a mirror’ Pam ventures, hoping the nurse will dissuade her and she can avoid the distress of seeing Stephanie upset.
‘Are you sure?’ the nurse asks ‘We were going to give it a few days yet. Why don’t you wait? We’ve got a lady who comes and tells you how to put make-up on...you know.....just until the scars have faded completely’ She quickly skirts the bed to touch a reassuring hand to Stephanie’s shoulder when a horrified look passes over her face. ‘Nooo, it’s very minor really, honestly. Sorry, I didn’t mean...... We don’t think there’ll be any permanent scarring on your face at all; maybe a little on your forehead where the scrapes were deepest but your fringe will easily cover that.’
‘Nirror, now’ Stephanie says stubbornly.
The nurse looks at Pam. ‘Might be best after what I went and said. You’ll be worrying about it otherwise, won’t you?’ she says to Stephanie. ‘And there really isn’t any need.’ She takes a deep breath and lets it out again. ‘Okay...but you’ve got to remember you’re going to look a lot better than you do now’
‘That’s what I told her’
Stephanie makes an impatient gesture with her hand and holds it flat, waiting for Pam to provide a powder compact from her handbag.
‘I can get a proper mirror if you give me a minute’ the nurse turns to go.
‘Nnyo’ she takes the compact and fiddles with the catch to open it.
The nurse stands at the side of the bed, her hand resting on Stephanie’s arm. Pam looks on, holding her breath while Stephanie slowly lifts the mirror. They both wait, ready for whatever reaction there might be.