‘YOU IN THERE GARSTON?’
Helen startles in surprise and backs into the far corner of the kitchen as Kester hammers on the door with his fist.
‘GARSTON! OPEN THIS FUCKING DOOR BEFORE I KICK IT IN!’
She covers her mouth with her hands and fearfully edges into the living area.
‘HELEN? IF YOU’RE IN THERE, I WANT YOU OUT NOW! THIS IS YOUR LAST CHANCE, GARSTON’ Kester threatens, hammering again ‘OPEN THIS DOOR!’
Helen stands behind the door ‘He’s not here’ she says, her voice trembling.
‘Let me in NOW!’
‘He’s not here, Kester. Please....go away’
‘I’ve only got your word for that. OPEN THIS DOOR!’
‘Please....the neighbours......please’
‘I'm warning you, I'll kick it in!’
Helen reaches for the lock ‘How did you....’
Kester barges in as the door opens a crack. ‘Where is he? COME OUT AND FACE ME, YOU BASTARD!’ he storms through the living area and bursts through the first door he comes to. Taking a quick look from side to side and finding it empty, he turns ready to move on to another room.
‘He’s not here’ Helen repeats, tears of fright streaming down her cheeks as she walks backwards along the small corridor with her hands held out and her fingertips brushing the walls at either side until they feel the edge of an architrave and come to a temporary halt. ‘Will you please stop and listen to me? He’s not here’
‘No?’ Kester sees her stance as an attempt to block his way and pushes through the barrier of her arm to fling open the door she seems to be protecting ‘But he has been!’ he growls , seeing the rumpled bed and Noel’s discarded clothing spilling from a linen basket ‘So this is where you spend your cosy nights, is it? I’m sorry. Perhaps I should have telephoned ahead and given you time to tidy’
Helen pulls back her shoulders and although shaking from head to foot, faces him angrily ‘If that is what you truly believe, you can go now. Go on. Get out before I call the police!’
‘You’re coming home with me!’
‘I don’t think so, Kester’ she says in a surprisingly steady voice ‘If you are so determined to think the worst of me ...and Noel, come to that, then I don’t think I want to come home, now or ever’ She turns her back to him and strides to the door ‘I would like you to leave’ she says, holding it open.
‘Helen’ his initial burst of anger spent, Kester walks towards her ‘Come home’ he implores ‘Please’
Helen closes her eyes to the pleading in his voice ‘I’m sorry. You really have gone too far. I’ve done nothing to deserve this and nor has Noel’ her eyes open and she looks at him directly ‘He’s a friend who let me use his apartment, that is all. I needed somewhere’
Kester lays his hand against the door and pushes it to ‘You could have come home. You know...when you’d calmed down a bit....you could have come home’
‘And I would have too. I told you that in my mail. Just as soon as I had had time to think a few things through but you couldn’t even allow me that much could you?’
‘I didn’t know you were here, then’ he sounds bitter and still angry.
‘With Noel, you mean?’ She draws a deep breath.
‘Yes, exactly, with Noel’
‘I will say this before you go and you will leave, Kester, because no matter what I say or do now is going to make any difference to what you believe but I want you to have something to think about’ her hand tightens around the door handle to steady herself 'This may be Noel’s apartment and yes, he did spend the night here last night but he slept in the room you saw fit to barge your way into and I slept in the room at the end of the corridor...on my own. I say we slept but it was hardly worth going to bed at all after sitting up half the night talking’
‘Yeah, right, talking....’
Helen stems his interruption with a scowl ‘Noel has proved himself a true friend and if you didn’t but know it, was trying to be a friend to you too’ her voice gains depth and determination ‘You may think his actions were underhand and his motives questionable but he saw, even if you didn’t, that I needed some breathing space, that I was angry, too angry to be reasonable without this time out. He’d seen how my absence affected too you and really wanted me to find that middle ground, a way to talk to you about things that matter without you getting defensive and making me feel guilty for not accepting my lot and getting on with it. It’s too late for that now’ her mouth twists slightly as she struggles to get the words said ‘You’ve shown just how little you trust me and I don’t think there’s any going back from that’
‘Helen, we can work this out’ Kester touches a tentative hand to her shoulder, his index finger lifting to run gently down her neck. ‘I’m sure we can. It’s not about trust, believe me. I’m sorry. I’ll apologise to him as well if that helps’
‘And I’m sorry too, very sorry’ Helen takes a step back from his hand and opens the door once more ‘Goodbye’